About
I am a 28 year old fat girl stumbling through life. I chase after my two boys (age 9 & 5) and right now am at some sort of crossroads in my life. Like a lot of people I am working through struggles and bad choices from my past and childhood, raising my boys, and struggling with my weight. I have been a big girl all my life. I am ok with how I look and my size (for the most part; I mean come on- everyone has something they want to change about themselves or want to loose a few pounds) but the weight is just starting to become such a struggle and burden. I am having issues with high blood pressure and blood sugar levels, along with asthma and problems with my knees from the weight. People look at me and say “Oh, you don’t look THAT fat”. Is this a compliment?! I am not so sure if it is. Every doctor that I have had has advised me to have weight loss surgery since I was 18 years old. At times I have decided that it would benefit me, just to find out that my insurance would not cover the surgery under any circumstances when I pursue it. Funny enough now that I am on public assistance I can now have weight loss surgery! I started pursuing the surgery this time in early 2009 and on November 4, 2009 I had a laproscopic Duodenal Switch surgery. I absolutely love my surgery choice (and my choice to have surgery) and I have starting thinking about how maybe journaling my thoughts and experiences would help keep me on track and perhaps be entertaining to folks out there in cyber space.
